yeap's philosophy

2012-03-04T13:40:00.001+08:00

her voice is calming. but im not sure if its her or machine... hmm nvm me im just confused.

2012-03-03T20:18:00.002+08:00

Cool i didnt know that there are deleted scenes out there xD

deleted scenes storyboard.

while in the movie.

and the lyrics of the song is different too.

"Never trust the future, never miss the past. If you live for the shining moment, the moment may just last."

<33

2012-03-03T16:33:00.004+08:00

SO, I was like looking back at my previous entries.

like randomly clicking them n read them at my archives.

HAHA I think i matured. *burst out laughing*

haha I mean if you were to compared the posts in 2006 to 2008.

you HAVE to agree that I matured alrights.

yeaa and rn, I mostly post about the music that I was listening to recently

or those that depicts my current mood.

haha.

i think this blog kinda means alot for me?

and reading back the entries in 2008 makes me think of my last yr in poly.

that was the BEST memories that I ever had.

it was so much fun.

and it kinda makes me missed studying so much.

so so much.

i just somehow wished certain things didn't happen and I might not be here at all.

but yea, no point harping on old issues since what matters now is the present and future.

but, how do you know if this is the right route for you?

how do you judge if the things that you are doing currently will take you to where you wants?

and how do you even know if you are going to like it?

more qns and self doubting again. ==

I guess I just think of such qns alot recently.

haha.

feel like chopping off my long hair to a boy cut.

HAHAHA just kidding >_> currently I don't dare yet but I really feel like.

right this is getting random.

bye ppl.

2012-03-02T23:36:00.001+08:00

<333

2012-03-01T01:19:00.004+08:00

did someone actually went to read my old entries on 28feb?

it feels so creepy. hahah but hello stranger/friend who uses IE to read my blog.

i hope my entires didnt bored u. and yea tbh, I'm feeling kinda creep out. because its as if trying to find something. >_> sorry paranoid rn.

gonna sleep. tmr work. back starting to ache again.

good nitex.

2012-03-01T01:14:00.002+08:00

【歌词：oh baby 即使我有了别人也绝对无法忘记你，Baby U know I can't forget，酒醉后打电话给你，即使我说我爱你，你只要听着就好。】

im kinda anticipating their new songs. LOL.

2012-02-26T13:41:00.000+08:00

想出国读书。

真的很想。

2012-02-26T01:13:00.000+08:00

那个时候的自己，已经分不清自己究竟是在梦境还是现实，

就那么一个人楞了好长时间。

连续不停的加班直到深夜，

和这些相比却微薄得可怜的月薪。

虽然这是我因为喜欢才会开始的工作，

但是这不断累积的疲劳让我精疲力尽。

可是，比起这个，更让我觉得疲惫的，

是不知道什么时候消失了的Idea。

即使我一直坚持着，揉揉眼睛继续盯着显示器，

就算这么辛苦了几个小时下来，

还是想不到创意，依然没有灵感。

在屋顶的休息室里进进出出，

接连不断地喝着咖啡。

想借着咖啡冲走这无端涌上来的焦灼，

然后再一次坐回办公桌边。

一整天，一整夜，反复着上面那一系列动作的话，

会因为自己什么都没有完成而背负一种愧疚感。

这条路，真的是适合我的路么？

原本就是条辛苦的路，

像我现在这样还在底层的人，

真的能够成功么？

从一开始，

我就根本谈不上有什么才能不是么？

也许是因为这些想法一股脑儿涌上来，

脑子一下子变得像那杂草般剪不断理还乱，

而后，某个瞬间，

脑子一下子变成完全放空的状态，就那么懵在那里了。

那天的我，一个人在自贩机前面静静地站了好久好久。

看着正在等着我的选择的光线前，发了好久的楞。

然后，静静地想了很多。

我一直觉得，要是自己也是这自动贩卖机该有多好。

只要摁一下按钮，那些创意就能自动地出来，

那一刻，我是多么希望自己是那样的自动贩卖机。

曾经看到过这样的文字。

“从事写作的人，如果对自身都感到羞愧的话，这就是罪恶。

因为对自身都羞愧的内心，

是无论如何都不可能独具匠心的。”

写作是这样，

美术是这样，

做音乐是这样，

画漫画也是这样。

对于需要创作的人来说，

没有什么比自信心更重要。

可是，自信心其实真的是很困难的事。

一下子就出现的Idea，

不能像自贩机那样产生的时候，

代替那自信心涌上来的，

是无止无尽的自愧感，

将我完全吞噬。

《我离成人还很远》

source: http://tieba.baidu.com/p/1337589537?pn=8

→ Feb 2012

2012-02-24T23:49:00.004+08:00

When the colors of our memories had faded, when it gets cloudy,

That's when I'll try to end my feelings of love

bye bye bye my love, bye bye bye my love,

can you hear me? you hear me now

2012-02-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

好。写完日记就滚去做功课。

最近真的是想太多了，我好矛盾。哈哈

在纠结很多问题，有些甚至是没有营养的无聊问题。

有时候很希望有人会和我说前面的路该怎么走。

走哪一步才会到我想要的东西。

从小到大，父母从不规定我，限制我。或逼过我做什么事。

用功读好书也是因为学生嘛，不用功读书还能做什么。

也可能因为就是这样，对自己想要的都不知道。

甚至到现在，我还在怀疑我自己到底真的适不适合做animator.

哈哈。i guess i second-guessed myself too much recently.

无意间看到了这个。

“我想我的梦想是辞了工作去写作”“那为什么不现在就开始？”“但是我现在的工作很重要，主要是我的薪水很重要并且还有许多人有赖于此生活”“我明白，但这些人会怎么办呢？你想，要是你明天就死了呢？”“哦，这个问题不太公平，因为我明天不太可能会死”“不，你现在正慢慢地死去。”--《与神对话》

完全的被戳中。因为薪水很重要。不能任性的说我不想作工，我不要作工。

因为还要给父母家用，还要帮忙称起这个家。不能任性。

虽然很多时候都会很想不管这些。但毕竟不能。

是连选择任性的理由都没有吧。

其实想想看。我心里还是个孩子。虽然踏入社会作工了，但我还是会有惊慌失措的时候。

很多在工作上遇到的不顺心也不会想要告诉家人。也不想他们知道，可能他们也不想知道吧。

哈哈

而且我还是很想读大学。diploma, 可能还不行吧。我想要更多。

我想出国，想进路擦是或的呢个。想要做feature-film.

想要有一天我的名字会在大荧幕上出现。让大家看到我有做到。

让家人以及我爱的人骄傲。

我有我自己的理想要追求。有自己的人生要过。

人生就是一个人的人生。

昌珉说的。

哈哈但抱歉我本命不是他而是他。

因为他我想要让自己成为更好的一个人。想对的起自己。不想再让自己后悔什么。

更不想自己失败或烂掉。哈哈。

我很怪我知道。这大概是想太多的因故吧。

哈哈，我必须更加努力才行。

恩，就这样。加油。

上课去。12点啦。拜拜。

2012-02-18T02:12:00.000+08:00

because they are so awesome<3

2012-02-16T00:07:00.001+08:00

2012-02-09T22:45:00.003+08:00

2012-02-04T22:56:00.003+08:00

照片里露出天真笑容的两人
从未想过会有这么一天来临
开心的挑选了一样的红茶

这个阳台不曾改变分毫
今天仍然飘着令人怀念的味道
都是因为你才让我掉泪

在约一次 再笑一次
若是我们可以再这个地方相遇
明明是想握着你的手立下誓言的

无法听到你的声音
无法唤呼你的名字
至少若是能在梦中相见
一定会紧紧地拥抱你
但却无法见到你
也无法说我爱你
疯狂到几近心碎
陷入了如此悲伤 如此悲伤的恋情

只是无法停止哭泣
陷入了如此悲伤 如此悲伤的恋情

如果只是要填补空虚
那找其他什么人都好
但总是与你的身影重叠
反而让人觉得更加寂寞

有朝一日转过那个街角
可以见到你出现在眼前
是我梦寐以求的奇迹

偶然也好 必然也好
若是我们可以再这条路上相遇
想前住你的手不顾一切地带你走

想倚在你的肩上
向专注地望着你
至少若是能在梦中相见
一定会好好地亲吻你

永远不会忘记你
也不会改变我自己
深爱到几近心痛
陷入了如此悲伤 如此悲伤的恋情

哪 现在你在做什么呢？
你是否幸福呢？

你仍旧 stay forever in my heart
如今依然 in my heart in my heart
明明是想握着你的手立下誓言的 
I love you

无法听到你的声音
无法唤呼你的名字
至少若是能在梦中相见
一定会紧紧地拥抱你
但却无法见到你
也无法说我爱你
疯狂到几近心碎
陷入了如此悲伤 如此悲伤的恋情

只是无法停止哭泣
陷入了如此悲伤 如此悲伤的恋情

I want you to stay in my heart
I need your love to bring tears to my eyes

2012-02-04T14:42:00.002+08:00

I want you to stay in my heart
I need your love to bring tears to my eyes

2012-01-24T21:49:00.000+08:00

rant time I guess.

Yeaa I know 大过年的。why am I ranting OTL.

but我就是好累好吗？！

读书好累，没人懂。还有，那个每个都好强，我好卑微。

我不知道为什么就用maya就整个好没feel。就整个自信超低的好吗？！

还有就根本没时间做功课，我时间管理好烂。我不是超人，每天作工回到家都好累，根本没时间做功课。半工办读的，真的好累。好不喜欢TT 好希望我是超人，那我就不用睡觉。那我也不会觉得累。根本连向别人倾诉的权利都没有。

是自己的选择，既然选了就要做好。我是有多么的情绪化啊。我的天。讨厌情绪化的自己。我是有多么纠结。多么的lost。

还有新年每个都问为什么不读大学。我很想啊，多么的想出国，多么的想离开这里。可是我放不下这里的好多事。真的放不下。T T 还有金钱是另一个问题。这些的这些，我能跟谁说。。。

说了问题还是在啊。。

2012-01-21T22:52:00.001+08:00

my all time favourite.

2012-01-19T21:47:00.002+08:00

好累，每天都不够睡。

头貌似要炸掉似的。

加油。

既然选了就把它做的最好。

会是个很好的经验。

BUT.

我真心不喜欢每个人都问我读的怎样了。

你要知道的话，自己不会去读啊？！？

够多事情了哦凯。不要再问了好吗？！？！

奈奈的。

2012-01-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

really tired to be working n studying at the same time.

2012-01-11T15:22:00.002+08:00

yayy tumblr is up theres still something tt i dunno how to fix >_>

neway, had my first QnA session today. ahhh i just dunno what to say when asked to intro and yea..

im really awkward.

let hope it will b better the next time and assignmnets time.

omg freaking out.

vnessay.=)

2012-01-10T00:59:00.002+08:00

because this is so pretty<3

2012-01-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

哈。太天真了。

毕竟还是不一样的吧。哈。

可笑。我对你的看法再也不会一样了。

抱歉。

真失望啊~

曾经把你看成是很好的一个朋友。现在，抱歉，不是了。

我还是会把你当成朋友看，but，我对你有所保留。

谢谢你一路的指教。

白白。

人永远是自私的，只为利益罢了。

=）

谢谢你。

2012-01-02T02:35:00.000+08:00

One Day, i really wanna work overseas.

2012-01-02T01:27:00.000+08:00

lovely. beautiful. broken

2012-01-02T01:05:00.003+08:00

2012-01-01T23:33:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 2012 PEOPLE<33 \O//

LOVE YOU ALL OKAYS.

let's see.. in 2011.

I think I had a great year, although there were times where i really hate myself and break down too, where my confidence is so low that it's atrocious.

BUT I think its considered quite a good year for me thou ^^;

let's see.. in 2012.

time for new resolutions i guess?

new year new resolution.

I just wished I will remebered this.

and lastly,

the 5 of you. you know who you are.

just. be alright no matter what okays.

i love you all. =)

2011-12-29T00:08:00.002+08:00

recently omg i feel so much angst in me >__> i dun even know why.

its like i lost the inner balance in me OTL

what is this. e__e i get irritated with ppl dma easily. i cant concentrate and omg i having insomnia so easily OTL.

ARGH. what is this.

probably is fanodm i guess. makes me damned sian. like seriously? you are getting so angry about the new grp. they might be good but to surpass them, it will take a long time. i dun get why ppl are just ranting w others when they rant. omg. i mean, do u really have s little faith in them? >__> yea i know im gonna get judge when i write this or whatsoever. but yea i dun really care. and i really dun like when they 把他们神化了。理智一点不好吗？真心受不了。如果有一天我脱饭了原因肯定是你的饭或工司。而且我现在超想脱饭。OTL T T 真的觉得很累。是真的很喜欢你们。也因为你们我认识了更多来自不同国家的人。那时还很喜欢这种感觉呢。现在，我不知道。可能是时候把重心放在自己的生活上。你们不是我的全部但我一部分的生活里一定会有你们。谢谢你们带来的快乐，这是我不会忘记的。如果允在不存在的话，我可能是中心允饭吧。这些话，我永远不能推在推特，会被judged到无体皮肤。还有就是我真的受不了loli饭。e__e /叹/ 我真的是矛盾到极点啊。请无视我，谢谢，就当我在发牢搔。

2011-12-07T15:42:00.001+08:00

他说过他很仔细的看着台下的每一个观众。

看的比别人想象中的还要仔细。

他的心思你永远不了解是因为你根本没有站在他立场想过。

他永远是那个叫饭好好生活的那一位，不是应为他不喜欢饭。

而是因为他知道不应该把他们作为全部。

他是我的榜样，我想有一天让他为我感到骄傲，至少让他知道有那么一个人曾经饭过他。

可能这么想有点白痴跟单纯但你不能否认一个饭他们的心。

就这样先吧。12月4日。我不能忘记这一天。

2011-11-21T00:08:00.001+08:00

it's been long since i posted something.

gonna sleep soon. nitex all.

p.s, i really like this piano cover =)

2011-09-08T11:00:00.005+08:00

haii~ my 501st post.

damned, i feel sick of everything.

work, fandom, i htink even if i went disappear for one whole week nobody is gonna realise it.

wth, i dunno anymore... fandom issit what i think as it is, i nv think that i will b sick of fandom.

it used to be a place for me to relax after work and i actually like meeting new ppl becuz of this.

but now, im not too sure anymore. i dun like shipping idols with myself, its totally weird.

and fans are just fans, nth more. and the trending issue makes me sick of it the most.

i agree, this fandom is biased.. and it makes me want to give more attention to homin.

.__. sorry im jus blogging out what ifeel.

i had so many things to said but if i twit out in tt acct. i will get judged by many.

i love all 5 okay. i know we all have our bias, i dun blame anyone for it. but i just hope everyone shld give the same amt of love to all 5. i myself are trying too. jae is my biased. but i feel tt i need to stand by homin more. /slapped/

i support ot5 to the end. i had nv bashed any sides before.

i used to not understand, but i willl still respect their decision.

all five of them wished to reuinte. thats all i can say.

if u wan to know more, go read and search for ursseelf.

u can find alot of things on baidu.

theres a reason why we are called the miracle of fandom.

becuz we still believe in all right?

sorry, i think i need a break now. i dun feel like spazzing anyone rn.

and my work is killing my health slowly. wtf. i wan to breakdown so many times this ep.

2011-09-04T00:37:00.002+08:00

someday i lay my love on you

baby i dont wanna lose it

now just one, theres only you

let each day be like the first time we meet

i pray for this love to true

no matter where we are

miss you

my babie you

nice song =)

2011-09-04T00:12:00.004+08:00

Haii everybodyy~

星期五的时候，pengkuile.

好丢脸==“ 还在lead的面前。知道有被appreciate的感觉很重要。

它是你的推动力，也是你坚持的理由。

（叹）

也可能是因为生病吧，humans are weak when they are sick.

突然被叫去，就整个pekuaile.

OTL。

好，那个我睡觉去。拜~

2011-08-28T22:34:00.002+08:00

for me, its dbsk, im serious.

cuz of the word them.

and probably because im looking at their stuff the whole day.

2011-08-27T16:27:00.003+08:00

micky
It's okay if you cry when you want to,
It's not unreasonable.
When a tear dries, a smile lights up your face.
Look, you are already laughing.

junsu
The future is confusing
But we are not defeated, we desire courage.

jaejoong
Every day and night with you,
I take your hand.
Every day every night everywhere,
Now we feel connected and verified.
Now, let the story begin.

yunho
You turn away to avoid my intentions,
But I like you.
When we are separated, we can share something.
Yes... if we have these feelings.

junsu
I cannot say "goodbye" to yesterday,
The unsteady hours are wasted.

jaejoong
Every day and night with you,
The heat and sparks form without cooling down,
Every day every night everywhere,
Now our contact increases,
Now, you and I begin.

changmin
I am like reality,
(Baby I need your love, need your touch)
(Baby I need your love, need your touch, baby)
In the darkness of the night I am scared,
(You tell me now)
But I'm not alone.

jaejoong
Every day and night with you,
I take your hand.
Every day every night everywhere,
Now we feel connected and verified.
Now, let the story begin.

Every day and night with you,
The heat and sparks form without cooling down,
Every day every night everywhere,
Now our contact increases,
Now, you and I begin

很美的合声对不对？^^

出门去，baiii~

2011-08-26T15:43:00.002+08:00

很好听对不对？
派色啦，本人最近很喜欢用中文。

kekeke

2011-08-26T00:15:00.002+08:00

okay i nearly forgot abt this blog /facepalm/

i might be moving from this to tumblr, lets see..

soo, i met rey for dinner today...

就，每次和他聊天就会想很多。OTL

我也不知为什么，but ya lo

就，他讲的很对，因该学习如何爱，爱是从家里的，你才懂得爱别人。

我本人是非常赞同啦，但我必须承认我自己还不会懂得真正的爱一个人，我也知道这一点啦。

算了我也不知道我乾嘛post这个

那个，不要理我就行了LOL

baiii~ 睡觉去！

2011-07-09T15:23:00.006+08:00

The letters that the stars created in the night sky
We still believe that it wasn't a coincidence
In the same darkness, in the same distance
Always drawing the "W"
To make you able to find, tt'll shine even brighter

Keep in mind that I love you

Certainly...
Someday we will meet again
We think of you every time we close our eyes
You're everything
It's still natural that you are by our side
Now, we just wish that you're happy and
We'll climb our stairs one at a time
While imagining about our future, we're still waiting for you

Certainly...
Someday we will meet again
We think of you every time we close our eyes
You're everything
It's still natural that you are by our side
Until we can meet again, we'll keep your place
We believe that we can smile with you again
You're my only love
Please hold on

Even as time passes by, even if the road ahead will be more painful
You're our "pride" forever

What you mumbled to the stars in the night sky
We still believe that it is not "Good bye"
Under the same sky, imagining the same dream
We're still searching for the letter "W"
We'll always shine in the same shape
Keep in mind that I love you

I want to see you
I want to see you
I want to see you
I want to see you
I want to see you
I want to see you

Certainly...
Someday we will meet again
We think of you every time we close our eyes
You're everything
Until the day we can meet again, we'll keep your place
We believe that we can smile with you again

TT________TT

cassies will know why.

2011-07-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

yes my post today will b like super random.
yeaa because to me they are more than just a grp of ppl with outstanding looks.

i like the fact that all of them can sing, i like the fact that their voices once touched me.

and lastly, i believe in their comeback in the near future. =]

2011-07-03T23:08:00.001+08:00

how sweet =]

2011-07-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

Alexandria’s Genesis, a.k.a violet eyes (a genetic mutation).

When someone is born with Alexandria’s Genesis, their eyes are blue or gray at birth. After six months, the eyes begin to change from their original color to purple, and this process lasts six months. During puberty, the color deepens to dark purple, a deep purple, a royal purple, or a violet-blue color and remains that way. It does not affect the person’s eyesight.Those who have this mutation will never grow any facial, body, pubic, or anal hair (not including hair on their head, on their ears, noses, eyebrows and eyelashes) Women also do not menstruate, but are fertile.

OMG I WISH I HAD THIS. YES NOT POSSIBLE I KNOW. IM JUST BEING RANDOM ROFL.

2011-06-11T23:34:00.002+08:00

2011-05-14T12:47:00.002+08:00

i really really like their voices.

[Hero] 不要说 这全部都是谎言 说时间会让我忘记一切

[Max] 那天离别留下的痛已渐渐稍微平静 可是对你的思念却越来越无法停止

[Hero] 虽然知道不会那麼简单

[Max] 虽然雨季也已经过去

[Hero Xiah] 还是不习惯 没你的日子

 [All] 我依然深爱著你 我依然渴望著你

[Hero] 失去了你后世界都停止了转动

 [Max] 就算像一个傻瓜 我都不在乎 终於可以了解 在我的心里只有你

[Micky] 不要听 这全部都是谎言 说已经忘了你的那句话

 [Xiah] 只害怕微不足道的那颗心再被伤害 心便背叛了话语 要我怎麼能忘记你

  [Uknow] 只去回想你的那些任性

[Xiah] 这样努力想要忘记你 思念是永不停息的旋律

[All] 我依然深爱著你 我依然渴望著你

 [Uknow] 失去了你后 世界都停止了转动

  [Max] 就算像一个傻瓜 我都不在乎

  [Xiah] 终於可以明白 在我的心里只有你

  [Micky] 我好想再把你抱进我的怀抱 永远的 不放手 守护你

 [Xiah](永远的守护你)

  [Xiah] 其实我的那颗心从来 都不曾离你而去

[Hero](离你而去)

 [All] 彷佛美好时光不曾走远 静静的

 [Micky] 停在那一天

[All] 在我小小的怀里 找不到一丝安慰

 [Xiah] 为什麼当我失去你后才能明白

[All] But I love you everyday

[Hero] 这一生我的灵魂只属於你 （不要忘记） 记得我在这里等你

 [Micky]see you once again my love．．

2011-05-08T20:41:00.003+08:00

omo 1 month didnt update alrdy :OOO

im here to post some music i guess xD

brb while i go find music to post....

time check ---> 8.37pm

i hope i wun forgot abt this post while i was looking for music ahaha youtube is a big distraction

back this song is really nice.

<33

time check 10.41pm /facepalm

but neway, i know this thru junsu performing it =)

gtg bye ppl!

2011-04-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

2011-04-06T21:56:00.002+08:00

sighh i breakdown yesterday. like seriosuly breakdown.

tat type of 大哭一场的哭。

seriously i cant take it.

很久没有这样哭了，还以为我忘了怎么释放出来。and i cried for liek 40 mins, n my eyes literally sore eyes afer tt.

just too much for me to handle rn. my work, my future, money issue, r/s issue.

yesterday actually i blogged but yea the app on my iphone refuse to publish my post.

today, i feel tat my future is ruinied.

argh, im not likeing the shots. i dunwan to do my work, i had enuff of it.

u have no idea wat im going thru all these.

n theres like no one i can talk to.

fml.

seriously.

n my com is not workign rn i cant do any work for my portfolio, i jus wan to cry can.

n i seriosuly hope to go out n study. but with my com like this. argh fml.

ive nv felt so screwed up before. it really sucks.

and theres jus so much things to b done. n i cant do it.

my deadlines are not going to b meet for this ep.

my com is not working at all. my laptop is jus spoilt. u tell me how bad can it b.

i jus want to get out of here.

i dunno. im jus screwed rn.

2011-04-03T01:29:00.000+08:00

jyj-inheaven.

2011-03-27T22:37:00.001+08:00

i was abt ot go but i jus cant go without posting this ahah!

gg off for real lol.

2011-03-27T16:34:00.002+08:00

hello ppl is spamming music time xD

out of 'THIER ROOM' album, i think i like this the best. haha

i like the melody n the rhythm =)

but not how it was ended haah like im enjoying enjoying then suddenly, eh? no more lol xD

omgahh tml is monday.

i dunno if u purposely gave me those or nt but, no matter wat, i will show u tat i will make it.

>:)

#nowplaying - JJ &YC - Colors~ Melody and Harmony

(in love)

2011-03-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

HEALTH>WEALTH

i think i ought to take care of my body now.

the scary feeling, i dun appreciate.

k?thanksbye.

ZzZzZ

am i too confused to distinguish wats reality and dream?

someone pull me out of this.

i shld jus ddo wateva i like n not thinking abt others feeling?

i shld care for everyone tat matters n stop myself from going on?

who will answer them for me? who reallys think abt wat u feel?

who really wished the best for u? who are willing to give up everything for u?

sometimes i jus feel tat i need to get out of here. is nt tat i dun like the comfort zone tat im in.

i jus thot tat i wanted to achieve much more and life is too short to care abt too much?

but lastly, am i willing to give up wat i hav here. im scared. i need someone to assure me tat wat im doing is right. n changes. im afraid of that.

some of us may accept it and jolly well take it. but im not a person who can accept it so generously. im afraid everything wil change n it might nt b wat i initally think that it would b.

but i reallly want to try. i wan to hav more life experience. i dun wan to hav regrets and only to look back n think, why didnt i do tat at that pt of time.

i hope i have the courage to do wat i really wants.

pls give me tat to do so.

signing off now.

its a new episode tml, 2012 jan, production will end. who knows wat will happen by then.

k really going off now.

bye.

.

2011-03-11T23:53:00.002+08:00

Recently, alot of thots came to my mind... Shld I let go? Let go and pursue my studies?

2011-03-06T22:49:00.002+08:00

my friends are awesome =)

i got to know this website thru sc blog, cool stuff thou

#nowplaying - Junsu - Too love (SKK OST)

AWESOME SONG ^^

2011-02-27T21:52:00.002+08:00

i think...

i need to move on.

._.

anyway am trying to learn new things now..

its freaking hard la

omg if this cannot, i gonna learn other stuff haha!

hope tat i can play music by then lol

fingers are hurting -_-;

neway, its a new week tml

shld go jogging soon.

2011-02-20T22:41:00.007+08:00

haha sorry ppl im still in my spazzing of dbsk esp kjj lol

omg when will i ever grow out of this zz

its kinda embarrassing~ haha! but yea.. dun judge me

i believe everyone have their right to spazz abt something,

jus tat mine is dbsk ^^;

._.

Love in the ice is seriously a beautiful song.

their tokyo dome perf is much better than the one i previously posted.

2011-01-28T00:36:00.004+08:00

okay this song jus kinda blow my mind away

i usually listen to the korean version, but this jap version is soo woww

and the lyrics is jus awesome.

jaejoong voice is so powerful!

.

2011-01-13T09:18:00.001+08:00

是不是说，没有做完的梦最痛。

#randomsonglyrics

2011-01-01T19:52:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2011 PEOPLE!!

WEEEeeee /celebrates

alright, time for time new yr's resolution planning hohoh

i'll update later (if i rmb to) with my resolution

ᄏᄏᄏᄏᄏ

enjoy the video!!

cuz ure amazing, jus the way u are

and dun ever look back!

Its a new yr now!

woohooo!

.

2010-12-22T01:36:00.001+08:00

Zz I hate it when the internet at my house is gay and I had to blog thru my iPhone and I dunno how the post will look like zzz

Sigh okay I'm writing to complain I guess =x

Sigh I seriously miss drawing, and I feel tat the things tat I once enjoyed doing, I dun feel for it anymore, it suddenly seems very flat for me. And I dun really like the feeling right now? I dunno if it's a dry spell or it will become permanent but I jus know tat this issnt me. And I'm kinda loss at wat to do.

And Haha I dunno wat to say, but I think after banana production, I might leave bah or even earlier. I dunno. And I think humans being are zz wateva. Anyway I jus tot tat they are not wat I think it is. Gossips can jus pop out for no reason and its kinda irritating i think. And ppl tends to 讲一套，做一套. And I think the world is much simpler when ure younger. When the most difficult choice is wat to eat for lunch later. I jus think tat I'm not tat ready for it and yet I can't not moving forward. It's wasn't jus like doing ur own stuff and such. Mayb it's my personality too. I care more abt how ppl actually look at me. And I want to show the best tat I can do. But right now? Everything is jus abt completing and competing it's not wat I really enjoyed. Its like it become a chore to me rather than I enjoy it. I used to really like animating and I feel satisfied after submitting my shots but right now, I jus feel tat my shots aren't up to my own standard and I jus feel bored at doing those shots. Yeaa the shots too, I think, maybe I shld request for shots. Then these way I Wun get the shots tat I dun really like? haha. If we didn't reshuffled, I think it might b better. I dunno. I jus feel tat I somehow lost the feeling. And I dunno how to make it come back to me. And to me, none of ppl really cares for each other bah. It's jus so artificial hahaha sorry. I mean, how much u can know abt a persons bg when ure only working together for 1 yr? Unless u like each other, well tat will b different BUT not much.
I dunno it's jus kinda sad? Haha! And, sometimes it's the best tat u jus keep quiet and jus blast ur music when others are so noisy(nosey) lol. And maybe I shld jus stop trying. Hahaha!
When ure starting to b more and more materialistic, when ure more concerned over money than kinship, when u finally understood how the world is, it's only jus the beginning, there's much more things tat u will encounter. And it's not whether whose right or wrong, it matters when money is concerned. And whose the boss here. Even best frens could b ur worst enemies.

Sigh i still got so much more to go.
Sorry, jus an emo post, since a long hiatus.
I will b better. Time to sleep. Good night.

2010-11-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

i really love their voice xD

and their clothes looked awesome =D

2010-10-24T19:53:00.003+08:00

Two Anyone - Go Away

ran 10 km today n i saw jh n teohong!

awesome!

my legs are nua lol

kinda enjoyed the race bah.

nice, hope to run again =)

u noe those time whr u jus wan to withdraw urself from this world and jus heck care abt alot of things but u noe u cant?

yeah tats wat im feeling now =X

need to get myself out of this.

monday, i will b a better me.

2010-10-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

yea i know long ago song but its nice =D

u noe, sometimes.

wat doesn't kills u, doesn't make u stronger.

but its driving u crazy.

monday, tmr and i wish tat its still weekend.

tired much.

2010-10-10T16:27:00.002+08:00

oiishhh im here to blog again wahah

went to geok celebration yesterday

ahh how i miss my girls.. heartss

didnt went to jing there, was supposed to... sorry jing but u noe i really really wan to come one right?? and i miss all my poly mates =3

hugss~ but still happy birthday! =)

and DEWI!! happy birthday today!

such a nice day, nice weather, nice date

10/10/10

hope ure enjoying ur day now kekeke =))

shld i go running later? =X im so feeling so sleepy =X

BUT THE WEATHER IS SOO GOOD FOR RUNNING! wahaha

its like no matter how long i sleep now seems to b not enuff =(

ahhh sadd..

tml is monday!!! sooooo fast

ahh im more active on twitter nowadays.

haha catch me there if u can lol =)

adios till next time =)

2010-10-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

oh man being 2 months since i bloggedd

2 months wahh alot of things happen ahha

but yea life still the same

work home sleep woke up n work again

my body is spoiled, have a weak body constituiton(?)

~~wadeva~~

sometimes i will think if i get another job a 9-5 job, but not wat i love would it b better? or in the first place i dun even enter this course but went to study dentist course, how different would it b now haha! but yea its too late now bah lol

ignore me tq

~~jus tat recently i had alot of thots inside me~~

嘴巴很静心却很吵

i missed being a kid.

yea i know its kinda irresponsible to say tat now haha!

esp when now ure part of the working society n u need to grow up

sighh i hope to study again too ahah

lets see again bahh

tml is monday!

see u ard peeps

ahh i haven watch my vampire dairies, gossip girls and so many other shows zzz

if only.... haha =D

i hope it will b okay soonn =S

2010-08-15T21:22:00.002+08:00

wahh tats alot of mails haha

k am going off now =D

2010-07-18T23:36:00.004+08:00

One of the best performance of no other =)
me likeyy~
even thou i wish tat they win but yea, u get wat i mean xD

P.S: growing up won't bring us down ;)

2010-06-27T22:19:00.000+08:00

There's no one else like you

this song is kinda sweet? xD

2010-06-13T23:11:00.002+08:00

okays after this post imma so gonna slpp

im feeling tired alrdy xD

somrthings i dun agree, n i feel so unhappy abt it, but after some thots and wat D says,

yea mayb i shld do tat, its like, like we getting alot after all

sighhhh

bounce to u, bounce to u =D

alright super junior's bonamana not the official mv,

but the most recent perf on music core

enjoy peeps and see ya ard =)

*eun hyuk (in red) dances really welll~ =]

2010-05-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

shifu told mi dun let it limit ur choices

yeah =)

shall rmb tat in mind.

alrighty, outing with the girls today was uper good =D

good food, nice atmosphere, nice deserts, great chats

luv u gals =]

i need 48 hrs a day,

12 hr for work, 12 hr for slp,

6 hr for dear, 6 hr for sjb and 12 hr for mi and my family

see jus nice righhhttt

anddd weekends shld still b 3 days =x

if only everytime there is a long weekend break jus like this time,

i will b super uper happy =D

missess.

2010-05-23T01:01:00.002+08:00

he's 16!
and the song is addictive xD
listen to eenie meenie too
=)

C.A.B.I. everytime all right
Oh~wild river
this song is freakingly stuck in my head =x

2010-05-06T23:04:00.005+08:00

been long since i blogged

need to get inspired for every ep.

need to think tat, when the shots is in ur hands, its ur resposibility to make it look interesting, feels right and hit it in timing wise.

need to get myself not to jus keep blindly rushing for deadlines but to really do a proper shot and not jus aiming for the minimum approval.

need to push myself to stop being lazy n try to do detailed animations for every shots.

(i think my animation is getting very linear. zzz)

need to get this ego off my mind.

find back the feeling tat i had enjoyed animating before i feel so drained out.

push urself van

jia you jia you jia youuuuuuu!!!

lastly, have a normal sleeping hr pls zzz

lol i blamed the tv xDD

2010-04-25T23:03:00.001+08:00

hmmm.....

2010-04-11T16:34:00.002+08:00

tarzan animation is goodddd

i likeyyy

go watch if u hav a chance =)

and i really missed schooling with frens.. it was so much easier than now. M if ure reading this u will noe wat im refering too. tat time i talked to u on phone abt...

sighhh i dun wanna grow up at all

2010-04-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

luv this song =))

2010-03-27T13:14:00.004+08:00

well definitely a great night last night

and its been long since i ate astons too =D
crashing jy's at mac is definitely enjoyable =)

oh mann

and now im jus so lazy to go work zzz

rwarrs

its a SATURDAY!!

i jus wan to nuaaa...

._.

2010-03-21T00:13:00.002+08:00

i super love seohyun voice esp the last part

and taeyeon is so pretttyy

2010-03-19T00:46:00.004+08:00

Q: how fake can this get?

A: as long as the game goes on.

lollipop

sweets

low BP

banana

watermelon

pink

red

sleep

gastric

late

mental block

cramps

hungry

laughs

crys

spec-ky

water.

i think weekends shld b 3 days

._.

correct me if im wrong.

2010-03-13T15:16:00.003+08:00

hmmm been nearly 2 mths since i blogged

since im not going to work today cuz of server down i shall update this space abit then

wat D says is so true. and i feel so much better after tat

thanks D. i hope tat u wun think so much too cuz ure really a nice person

well at least currently i think so

yea? xD

oh yeaa i made new specs hohoho

but it wasnt as comfortable as the old one.. its kinda weird...

zzz

alrighty alice in wonderland tml =)

2010-01-17T00:28:00.003+08:00

im missing so many things out becuz of work

zzz its so sad =(

zzz my gastric is coming in again zzz

shit.

and im hungry now

2010-01-14T20:43:00.002+08:00

alright..

been 2 weeks since i blogged =x

some good news and some not so good ones zzz

good news is i pass my driving test!! i can drive an auto car now!

and my animation have improved =))

but the thing is

im feeling so drained currently zzz

i dunno wat im animating now..

i dunno wat to do for it anymore zzz its like mental blcok zzzz

its sucks...

and i hate when ppl are telling mi dun worry, ure doing well when i noe myself tat im not

ZZZZ

yuckss the feeling is jus yuckss

and its not helping when im having a flu the whole day and gastric pain since dinner zzz

zzz the feelign is jus so damn pek chek sia zzz

arghhhhh i hate this kind of feeling zzz

the wtf kind of feeling whr everything dun goes right

2010-01-01T14:38:00.005+08:00

oh yea its 2010 now eh =)

its a new year!

so new resolutions =))

31 dec

dear pick me up from office =)

dinner at soup spoon n off we go to see fireworks at sengkang

its AWESOME!

better than last yr!

partner! meeet mi up soon for ur present

zzz i think wat i get for u, u might not like sia zzz

ahhh zz how.. can.. i forget tat.. zzz

alrighty hope tat this year will b a good year for me and everyone else!

TAKARE AND CHEERIOS!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-12-24T01:09:00.002+08:00

AVATAR IS GOOD

GO WATCH IT PPL

ITS EPIC

2009-12-20T18:36:00.004+08:00

zzz gah

i need more sleep zzzz

GAH
teach mi how to not get affected by ppl

teach mi wats right n wats not

teach mi how to carry on

zzzz

someone, pull mi out of this!

2009-12-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

i think im kinda losing it now

i feel so dry, dry of ideas.

i dun even noe wat im doing now.

i dun even look forward to it anymore.

and other issues too

mayb one day when i cant take it anymore, i might jus disappear haha

or ill go study overseas

i think i need to break away from my comfort zone, im going stale zzz,

cuz tats how u learn n improve.

urgghh been thinkign alot suddenly

zzz headache comes in now =x

tml will b a better day, i always hope tat

but my intuition tells mi not really

ha. zzz.

how long can i last zzz we shall see.

k time to hit the sack,

good nitex peeps. =)

i dun wanna grow up =x

2009-11-15T19:40:00.001+08:00

So let them go and fade into light

Give up the fight here

2009-11-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

these 2 weeks, lots of things happen

some good some bad

more of roller coaster of emotions i guess lol

ZzZ

but everything is fine now i hope.

im kinda a bit drained for work.. zzz

think positive yeap zz

today's ubin trip was great!

luv it =))

tks chelsea! =D and i can cycle but i cant turn zzz lol

but it was a good cycling trip =)

we shld eat steamboat soon!!

yay! n im eating with sc on tue hohoho

i cant wait! =)

2009-10-27T00:37:00.003+08:00

sigh

im sorry

i cant give u anything now.

could we jus go back to the time where u n i dunno anything?

this is so much easier

and better

for both of us i think.

becuz we will nv noe wat we felt for

im sorry.

this is for u.

monkey =x

2009-10-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

i shldnt feel this way.

i feel so bad ZzZ

how? im confused n kinda feeling like crap now

ZzZ

i shldnt b doing this

its not fair to anyone.

sighh

___________

mon im so gonna die of overload of work xD

becuz i didnt go back to work on weekends

=x and i had my reasons.

lol

2009-10-14T00:54:00.002+08:00

i saw something on ur facebook

nvm i shall give u time to explain it.

im not unreasonable but current im in not a so good mood after i saw what i see.

n pls THINK.

________

i love my work. but its crazy.

think (+)

2009-09-19T14:21:00.004+08:00

updates:

life been busy hohoho

yup and the days of MIA, i

send van off to london.

walk home form kovan to sengkang in 1 hr 30 mins with sc.

love my work

yet im scared i cant get to their expectations.

10sec 1 day. its kinda alot?

hopey i can work faster

people were great =)

feels exhausted

wanted to give up tuition

missed the timing for booking my drving b4 test

needs to be more confident.

know who are my good frens and hi bye ones.

how many percent of truth are there before every phrase of just kidding?

2009-09-03T00:33:00.003+08:00

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious

supercalifragilisticexpialidocious /ˌsuːpərˌkælɪˌfrædʒəlˌɪstɪkˌɛkspiːˌælɪˈdoʊʃəs/ adj. describing any quality that is so indescribable that you have no real word to say it with

2009-08-30T23:57:00.003+08:00

whenever im feelin this kind, like wat im feeling now. i dunno the exact word to describe but yea u get the idea. =)
i will go blog hopping and read blogs tat will kinda makes mi feel better haha nope its definately not friends' blog. haha u get the idea right haha. i hope u do =)

and i think wat im currently blogging don't make sense. ha.

k time to hit the sack =) bye ppl =)

2yrs. =)

2009-08-30T01:32:00.002+08:00

i wan more time pls.

2 1/2 yrs. i give myself

2009-08-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

So, on the days of hiatus, I

passed my btt, my ftt, started driving still in the midst of learing, had a sjb chalet tat me n sc planned, but sadly, we slept the night away, hopes to have one more during dec, done yeo's farewell gift with only sc and me, went to sec sch glass gathering, spent most of my money, am currently broke now, learned rendering again for a freelance job but sadly he didnt contact me again after tat, done a few life drawings, went to lots of bdae chalets too, started to give tuition to earn money, celebrated my birthday well i think, went prawning, eat the biggest prawn in my life, learn how to prawn and gets addicted to it, have my 'complicted' partner with me to spent fridays with =), and she gave me a present tat i like it alot thanks eh =), revamp my website, update my demoreel, re-rendered the stuffs tat i wasnt happy with, done more works, hopes to do more, hopes to get into a company tat i wan still, stills thinking of jedi program as a backup, plans my future, realise who are my true and close frens, fell in love with SNSD and their songs, visits the dental and he say i could take out my braces soon, chilled with sc at coffee bean and talk abt the past, present and future, went arcade and goes gaga over a t shirt zzz, went dinner with sc n js at chomp chomp, thanked all who wished mi on my bdae on facebook, went to see a doc cuz of throat infection, drank the most amt of water these few days, but still have sore throat and cough is bad, worsen still and lastly,
i blogged again and retrive my archives =)

2009-07-06T19:44:00.003+08:00

nov 2004 - july 2009 R.I.P <3

2009-07-05T21:55:00.010+08:00

becuz i believe tat things will b better and i shldnt b so negative

and things WILL b better =)

calm down.

2009-07-04T12:41:00.000+08:00

i got this from tyco fb.

and i think it was nicer than lady gaga's.

2009-06-27T13:39:00.003+08:00

whatever lo. if u are going to carry on with this kind of bo chap attitude then fine.

i got nth to say anymore.

2009-06-20T23:30:00.005+08:00

it's kinda sad from

"yup i KNOW her/him"

"ohh i KNEW him/her"

haha just one of the days whr u think alot abt the ppl ard u and ur future

so many ppl passby ur life, those who u treasured and make an effort to keep contact with, stayed. But what abt those who u were so close before and now u feels like a complete stranger to them?

its kinda sad huh.

hahaa. okays i think i think too much.

hahaa...bye ppl.

p.s and i thanked all those whom i get to be closer with no matter is before or now. =)

2009-06-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

Sour Jaw.

2009-06-18T02:23:00.002+08:00

booking the driving slots makes me feels

ARGHH

cuz the website is so slow

n there are so many ppl trying to book

n i keep kena time out

n so fast the slots were taken up despite

that i log in at 12am and now im jus done with it

crap.

=.= kay im off to slp.

cg overdrive tml anyone? to view the exhibition.

i've got no money for the conference. =x

*hopes tat somebody can go with me. .__.

2009-06-17T23:31:00.001+08:00

need to find it back.

cuz i think im losing it.

and

pls guide me thru this.